Thursday, August 31, 2006

Fasting Quote

On the last day of my fast, I found this great John Piper quote on Desiring God's website.

"?The reward we are to seek from the Father in fasting is not first or mainly the gifts of God, but God himself."
(A Hunger for God, pg. 78)


I thank God that by his grace He gave me this outlook before the fast began. And as my 8 day fast comes to an end, God himself is what I am still seeking.

P.S. After a good night's sleep, the nervousness I had about tonight's Starving Jesus event is gone and I am extremely excited at what God may do tonight. Hope to see you there!

Wednesday, August 30, 2006

Starving Jesus and Starving Erin

Starving Jesus
Only one more day until the Starving Jesus tour joins up with Watershed for one night. I'm super excited, but for some odd reason a little nervous. I'm hoping that every thing comes together and that we aren't the worst stop on the tour. I am really praying that God draws the right people who need to hear Craig and J.R.'s message, and that in Kingdom-terms the night is a success, regardless of how many actually show up.

If you live in the Cedar Rapids area and don't have plans (or if you do - cancel them!), I encourage you to join us tomorrow night, Aug. 31 at 7:30 pm in the west parking lot outside New Covenant Bible Church.

Starving Erin
My fast has been really good, very interesting, and quite hard. Here are some thoughts (some even paradoxical thoughts) on my fast so far:

- I know this next sentence makes no sense: in some ways I expected the fast to be easier (I didn't expect hunger pains THAT strong) but also harder (I've had no headaches and almost no fatigue).

- It wasn't as hard sitting at the restaurants last Friday and Saturday watching everyone eat as I had expected (although I was very hungry). But it was much harder to make a cake and supper for LeAnn's birthday on Saturday afternoon. And the supper that the Pagels brought to us last night was almost unbearable to smell!

- I was told by various sources that I just needed to make it through Day 3. Well Day 4 was JUST as hard as Day 3. Day 5 was the turn around for me.

- I expected to need more sleep and to feel more tired. I've been very surprised at my energy level, especially with a newborn baby in the house (I woke up at 2:30 this morning with T and couldn't get back to sleep until 4:30 am - weird!).

- I have been very glad that I made the decision not to step on the scale during this fast (so that it wouldn't be an extreme diet), but I can tell in the mirror I've lost weight.

- I've had some great times with God during all of this, but haven't quite had the deep moments I expected and prayed for. But I've seen some cool things in Scripture lately! (Ask me about my new-to-me discovery of Elijah/Elisha paralleling John the Baptist/Jesus!).

- And I am glad that by the grace of God I haven't even slipped once (I even washed the cake icing off my finger instead of licking it off as I baked last Saturday), but I have been amazed at the power of temptation to eat. I didn't realize how easily I ate before, or how prevalent food is in our society (every where I go are advertisements or conversations about food!).

- I haven't regretted a bit doing this, and think I will probably do another fast in the future. But I also have to be honest - I am REALLY looking forward to Friday! :o)

Friday, August 25, 2006

Happy Birthday!

Here's a happy birthday post to the most important woman in my life.

I Love you, Le! Welcome to 33.

Wednesday, August 23, 2006

More on fasting...

Two days until my week-long fast. I'm excited, nervous, and fearful all at the same time. Excited about what God will do in my life during this next week. Nervous of the unknown (as I've admitted, I've never done a fast for this long). And fearful of going without food for a full week (I really like food!). But if the Starving Jesus dudes can go 40 days, I think I can handle 7.

Books on Fasting
If you are thinking about joining me for this fast, but want some more info, someone lent me two books on fasting. I quickly read the little one entitled "How to Fast Successfully" by Derek Prince. It was well written, to the point, and somewhat helpful. The other book is entitled "The Beginner's Guid to Fasting" by Elmer Towns. I haven't cracked it yet, but I am familiar with Elmer Towns' name, and so expect the book to be just as good as and more thorough than Prince's short book. If you would like to borrow one of these books, just let me know, other wise I'll return them to their owner after my fast.

If you don't have time for a book right now, you might just check out the page about fasting on StarvingJesus.com by clicking on Fasting 101 in the right column (before the tour dates list).

Thursday, August 17, 2006

Be Affirmed!

In case you've been feeling neglected or ignored by me lately, please click here.

:o)

Wednesday, August 16, 2006

My life as an apple tree...

Observation from my back yard at this moment...

There is an apple tree growing in the back northwest corner (the picture is of M hanging from it two summers ago). My kids love to climb it. (But at the moment M and S are playing some strange game of knocking each other off the slide - and they are laughing and loving it. I'm wondering how much longer it will last before someone gets hurt, but I digress... back to the tree...)

I noticed this evening that the tree is producing more apples this summer, and larger ones at that, than in previous years. But as I sit here on the patio in my cracked plastic chair, I noticed how the fruit is strong and numerous on some branches, but very few apples are growing in other parts.

Man, my spiritual life is a lot like that apple tree...

Fasting

By the way, I think I failed to mention with all of this Starving Jesus stuff that I've decided I'm going to fast from food completely for 7 days. I'm going to start August 25th and end the fast after the event on the 31st (well, technically I'll break the fast on Sept 1).

I'm excited about this fast, but also dreading it. My wife's birthday is August 25th (so I better make sure we celebrate early!), I have a conference the 25th and 26th, our staff has a fun activity planned for the 29th... All these great "food" opportunities and I'm going to have to abstain. AAAHHHH! Maybe my food addiction is worse than I thought... ;o)

What will make the fast easier is if I have some other people doing it with me. If you are in CR and want to join me, leave a comment here or email me directly. I'll let you decide what your fast looks like (one day, daylight hours only, TV/media fast, etc.). If you do do a fast for only one day, I strongly recommend you do it on Thursday, August 31, then come to the Starving Jesus event sponsored by Watershed.

-E

Two weeks and counting...

Only two weeks until the Starving Jesus tour rolls into Cedar Rapids. If you haven't read about the tour yet, or even lately for that matter, head over to starvingjesus.com to find out the great God-things happening on the tour.

One surprise, though, that I just read on the Starving Jesus site. One church cancelled on Craig and J.R. (after planning a huge outreach around their arrival) because (and I quote) "we are visiting other denominations other than their own during the tour? "

I am so saddened to read that. I know Craig and J.R. and their ministry often rides the line of "offensive" (and they know it too) - so I could see a church cancelling because they are just simply uncomfortable with Craig and J.R. (and if that were the case, the church should never have booked them). But to cancel because they aren't part of your party lines? Unbelievable.

Tuesday, August 15, 2006

An Emerging Description I want for me...

I haven't posted on my blog about the Emerging Church until now. Which has been somewhat by intention - I would rather post about things that get me and others looking at our character and living our lives all-out for Christ. Most of the EC conversation (whether for it or against it) doesn't seem to propel the conversants in that direction, and so I don't post about it. However, the Emerging Church is something I have interest in because it involves the Church - which is something I dearly love. If you don't know a thing about the emerging church - that's ok, many people within the "emerging church" aren't quite sure themselves. But there are loads of blogs about it, so a quick search of Blogger or Google will get you more info than you have time for.

I want to make it clear: I'm not anti-Emerging Church, nor am I pro-EC. But as I read Alex McManus' blog on whether the church he is involved with (named Mosaic) can be labeled "Emerging", he had a great quote that captured how I want to live my life AND for any ministry I'm involved with to look or feel. Here's Alex's quote:

Many of those who take on the mantle of the Emerging Church seem to me to be burned out Church leaders who needed to bail on a Christianity that offered pat but empty answers. I consider this a good move. But, in contrast, Mosaic is more like a convert who is full of enthusiasm, joy and hope. The new convert moves with speed and intentionality towards Jesus, towards the scriptures, towards Christ following community, and towards the world in service and mission.

I LOVE being around brand new Christians. Why? Because they have a sense of passion and excitement about Christ that many Christ followers seem to lack. Being around a new creature in Christ is always good for my own faith. I want to live my life with that same passion and excitement (balanced with maturity that comes from spending time with God in His Scriptures and in prayer).

And I want my church or any ministry I'm involved with to be more like an excited convert than anything else. The culture of that ministry would be outreach focused, moving intentionally towards Jesus, the scriptures, community, and world service. That's the kind of group I want to be involved with.

So are you living your Christian life with a staid faith? Or do you have the excitement of a new creation?

To read Alex's entire blog, click here.

Keeping an eye on your word...

On March 23, my wife ordered new lenses at Iowa Eye Care for my daughter's glasses. What was so unfortunate about the date was that if we had made it to Iowa Eye Care two days earlier, the lenses would have been under warranty. Bummer. But K needed new lenses, so we were willing to pay.

But when LeAnn and K went in to pick up the new lenses, they were cut wrong. So they had to be re-ordered, and K had to wait a week to finally get her updated lenses. When LeAnn and K were picking up the corrected lenses, LeAnn was told that she didn't have to pay anything. LeAnn was surprised by this, so she made sure, asking again. And the gal was clear - no payment was necessary.

"What a blessing!" we thought. At least until this past week.

K's left temple fell off this last week, so we needed to get it replaced. This meant another trip to Iowa Eye Care on 1st Ave. They ordered the part and told us the cost was going to be $27.

When K and I got home, there was a phone message from Iowa Eye Care telling us that we owed them $80 for the lenses from last March. They hadn't billed us. They hadn't called us in the Spring saying we owed. They waited until we had a need, and then say "oh, and by the way, you never paid." I felt like we were being accused of being negligent. So when we got this news, LeAnn and I were quite surprised because they had been very clear last March - we don't owe anything for the lenses.

There's more to this story I could share (especially from Iowa Eye Care's side), but this is getting long enough. Suffice it to say, LeAnn and I paid the $80, but I was so bothered by this issue. Why was I so internally worked up over paying $80 for eyeglass lenses?

As I thought through the issue, I realized it had nothing to do with the lenses. What bothered me so much was to be told one thing, then 5 months later have the other party go completely against everything they just said. Yes, it was a mistake - but why can't they keep their word?

I have to do this all the time as a parent and pastor. I will say one thing to my kids ("sure, you can have a piece of candy"), and then later realize it may not have been the best thing ("what? they've already had 4 pieces of candy today?"). So what do I do? Do I correct the mistake, but look inconsistent? Or do I suffer the mistake personally so that I am a man of integrity (but exhort myself to be more careful with what I say next time)?

After this incident, LeAnn and I have decided that we will take our eyeglass business elsewhere. If a company can't stand by the word of their employees and is so willing to fight for $80, then when I have to spend $300 on new lenses and frames this year, someone else will receive that, not Iowa Eye Care. It would probably soften this incident if Iowa Eye Care had treated us differently, but that's not the point of this blog. The point for me is I am resolved to once again be a word-keeper through the power of the Holy Spirit.

Wednesday, August 09, 2006

Baby Bird #4 arrives!

Tsion Christopher was born Saturday, August 5, at 6:00 am weighing 8 lbs and measuring 21 in. long two weeks before his due date. We were praying for 8 lbs because his big brother, S, was 9 lbs 7 oz and we did not want to repeat that! Mom and baby are doing great, and the siblings are thrilled to have a new little one in the home.

As to his name, Tsion (pronounced Zion - we preferred the transliterated Hebrew spelling) means "raised up" and Christopher means "Christ bearer", so to us his name means "raised up with Christ" which is from Ephesians 2:6 (the meaning of all of our kids can be found in Ephesians 2, so we kept with "tradition"!).

Tuesday, August 01, 2006

Starving Jesus

Watershed will be hosting the Starving Jesus "40 Days of Nothing" Tour on August 31st at our usual 7:30 pm time. To see the blog about the Cedar Rapids date, click here.

As I have started sharing this announcement with people, I have gotten a few questions. I think the Starving Jesus website can answer most of the questions I've gotten, but some have wondered how in the world Cedar Rapids, of all places, landed a stop on the tour.

First, it's probably because Craig Gross and J.R. Mahon, the guys who authored the book and will be speaking on the tour, are now living in Grand Rapids, MI, and "Grand Rapids" has two words and "Cedar Rapids" has two words and they both have the same second word, and the first word in both city names has 5 letters, 3 of which they hold in common, and this is one horribly long grammatically incorrect sentence, but I digress.

Naw, I doubt that the reason at all, but here's how it did happen.

I have known about the ministry of XXXChurch.com for some time now. I've referred guys struggling with porn-addictions or temptations to their free accountability software. When they put out a Mac version, I immediately downloaded it so I could tell these guys I'm counselling "yeah, my wife and best friend get my accountability emails" so that they would feel like someone else had led the way for them to place such a safety net in their lives. When I downloaded the Mac version, I selected to receive XXXChurch's free newsletter.

One month the newsletter talked about Craig Gross's new book (Craig is the co-founder of XXXChurch). The book was entitled "Starving Jesus". The title was slightly offensive, but I was used to that "line" being walked due to other things I've seen XXXChurch do to engage people in honest conversation about faith, Jesus, sexuality, masturbation, marriage, etc. To promote the book (or more importantly the message within the book), Craig and the co-author J.R. Mahon (a key staff member of XXXChurch) were going on a "40 Days of Nothing" Tour. One of the cities listed was Cedar Rapids.

I was curious, so I emailed to find out where in CR the event was going to be held. Craig emailed me back and said "could you host us?" After a couple of emails back and forth, we nailed down the August 31st date and made Craig and J.R. the official speakers for Watershed's Worship Gathering that night.

So that is the story of how "Starving Jesus" is coming to humble Cedar Rapids. I'm excited that the young adults from Watershed and other area ministries are going to be challenged in this way, and I'm praying for the Holy Spirit to speak to our hearts in an amazing way. I think the other questions you might have (like "Why the title "Starving Jesus?" "Why 40 Days of Nothing?" "Why is Jesus holding a mailbox post?") will be answered by the main Starving Jesus website (well, they probably won't answer the last question, but someone did just ask me that Thursday night when they saw the announcement for the first time).